Finghus Bent was now standing in the stationery alcove. He didn't need any more parchment. Quite the opposite, he wished he could get rid of a large portion of the parchment in his hands. He dumped it on the stone counter, and began leafing through it, occasionally looking up at the dozens of slots and mouseholes full of various different types of stationery. He appeared to be comparing what he found as he leafed through his pile to the stationery above, as though he needed to find something that matched in some way.
Of course, all he actually studied when he looked up were the patterns of cobwebs and the wormholes in the wood. He was sorting his papers into those he could actually take into the Under-Manager's office, and those he would have to hide somewhere. The idea of simply waiting a bit and then going back to his desk was out of the question. Now that he had said he was going there, he would have to do it. He looked at the cobwebs again. One was actually a spider web. He suddenly imagined a spider large enough to fill one of the mouseholes.
What he had found today, the shipping record from Tobin and Sons, Limited, was a valid reason for seeing the Under-Manager. Of course, it wasn't the Grand Test shipment he thought was in error, but the other record. The most the over-clerk would hear would probably be that he had indeed went to the office of Admonast Fenn, and had indeed talked with him about some record having to do with a Grand Test entry. All well and good then.
All his parchments were sorted now. The random handful of files and the bean harvest record were separated out, and he had put them into the back of another file. He wouldn't have to show Fenn all of them, and it wouldn't be entirely unreasonable for him to be carrying around another file.
He couldn't believe how calm he was now. Was he really that calm? Sometime while he was standing here at the stationery counter, his sense of reality had returned to normal. He couldn't pinpoint the moment now, but it was almost as though he had awoken from a dream, and slowly come around to find himself standing here. No, it certainly hadn't been a dream. There were the files here in his hands. He was ready to walk to Mr. Fenn's office.
He looked at the windows in the door and walls of the elevated office at the back of the room through which he was walking. He walked with purpose, and lacking the common pauses and stops of a typical transit of a room. The office was three, or perhaps four steps above the rest of the room, and the windows were so dusty as to be almost completely opaque. The desks with their clerks, busy with their work as he walked through them, became merely the background of what he saw. As he came closer, he saw that the window in the door bore only the words "Under-Manager," but no name.
He counted four steps to himself quickly, before he stepped on the first. His hand reached out toward the engraved bronze knob and turned it, the door swinging almost fully open as he mounted the last step.
What had he done?! He hadn't knocked! Good Gods! He froze, dumbfounded.
Mr. Admonast Fenn was a thin older man, his hair a rim of white fringe around the perimeter of his head. He sat at his desk behind a dusty bit of wood and brass bearing his name. He was looking down at a parchment. Without raising his eyes, he said "Yes?"
Finghus Bent looked at the mottled, chalky white skin on the top of Mr. Fenn's skull, and on his hands. It suddenly occurred to him he hadn't practised what he would say. It hadn't even crossed his mind.
"Mr. Fenn." It sounded a bit like a question.
"Yes?," he said again in precisely the same way. His quill made thin, high scratching noises in the silence.
"I was researching the different places, the different files, where I'd need to put referencing notes for this file I was working on." He paused for a fraction, but Mr. Fenn neither stopped writing nor looked up. He quickly continued. "And in one of them I was looking in, I found another record which I thought surely must have something to do with the one I was researching." No, he wasn't being clear at all. He wasn't conveying what he meant.
"The file I found, the related one, to the one I'd been working on, seemed to have something wrong with it. Then I thought it must be the file I'd been working on that was the problem." Still no response. "So... I thought I'd better... show it to you, and..." He smiled lamely, and raised his eyebrows in a sort of 'there it is, don't you know' expression.
Without looking up, and while continuing to scratch his quill across the parchment before him, Mr. Fenn said "Having a bit of trouble with your grammar then, Mr. ...?"
"Bent."
In one smooth motion, Mr. Admonast Fenn deftly placed another parchment over the one on which he'd been writing, put his quill in its holder, and raised his face to Mr. Bent, a wide smile upon it. It was the sort of large, overly gentle, closed mouthed, condescending smile one might give to a child who isn't quite grasping something.
"Don't fret Mr. Bent, I'm certain it isn't your fault. It's the abysmal education system. Now let me see this file of yours, won't you?" He held out one hand.
Finghus handed him the file he had found regarding the Grand Test shipment from Tobin and Sons, Limited. He realised after Mr. Fenn took it that he had probably meant the file having the supposed error. Well, just go with it.
After a few moments looking the parchment over, Fenn said "Mr. Bent, this is a record for a shipment to the Grand Test. The receiving address is within the Akurratu Morvalicus itself." He tilted his head forward a bit, raising his eyebrows. "That's the Imperial Palace in Helios, Mr. Bent."
He thinks I've brought this here because I'm a complete idiot. He thinks I've made a terribly stupid error. He thinks I don't even know what it is.
Fenn continued, saying "You don't think they might have made an error on this, do you?"
"Well, I was concerned about that at first too, but this is the file I think is in error." He held up the piece of parchment he'd originally drawn from his sea of files, and made to set it on the desk. Mr. Fenn took it in hand before it reached the surface. Laying the other file reverently aside, he began carefully studying the parchment.
"You've had this for over a month, Bent. Isn't that so?"
"Uhm... well, that's the date the illuminator had it approved." What?! He hadn't thought about that. What could he say? What could he come up with to excuse this?
"I'm well aware, Mr. Bent, of what the date indicates. But do you know what else it indicates to me Mr. Bent? Indolence. Someone probably wished to see this by now, and they should have been able to. We're relied upon, Mr. Bent, to do our job not only thoroughly, but in a timely manner. We are the only firm in this part of the Old Marches to bear the seal of the Scriptorium Morvalicum, and we bear it proudly, Mr. Bent. People in this area, and many outside it I might add, have, over the years, come to see the firm of Ipsum, Lorem, and Finibus as a watchword in the field of reliability.
"Tobin and Sons, Limited is an important account as well, Mr. Bent. They've been relying on this firm, relying Mr. Bent, since the time of Mr. Finibus himself. You do realise how many centuries that is, don't you?"
"Yes... Yes." Damn it! What do I say?!
Admonast Fenn sighed deeply, pregnant with annoyance. "Well..." He looked over the parchment again quickly. "Whatever led you to believe these files were related in the first place?"
"Well..." A feeble half smile. "They're both with Tobin and Sons, and both the shipments weight the same amount."
"Weigh, Mr. Bent, weigh."
"Uh... Yes" Another feeble smile.
"But they don't weigh the same amount, Mr. Bent."
"Well, actually, you see there on the Grand Test shipment..." He pointed to the spot, despite Fenn's glare. "The same weight's been lined out. It was the same, but then it was lined out, as though... perhaps part of it was removed."
"Or as though it were a coincidental error, Mr. Bent. Even had it remained the same, I feel you've given it too much significance. I would venture to assume, Mr. Bent, that you and I weigh roughly the same amount. Should that lead someone to assume we are the same person?"
"No."
"No. Now, I think it would be best for everyone concerned if you would get back to work. How many more files of this age do you have on your desk, Mr. Bent?"
"Uh... none, I don't think. It's very unusual for a file to be on my desk as long as this one. I always keep up as best I can. The only thing I can think of is that it must have gotten stuck to another parchment, or maybe gotten covered up by someone leaving something else, while I was tracking something down in the files." Fatuous! Fatuous and bootless!
There are a dozen things on my desk a month old, or older. I'll bet he knows it too! And there he sits, gloating on it. Despicable toad! Mr. Who? indeed! He knows who I am, only too well! I'd like to take that quill and jam it into your eye. Scratch, scratch, scratch! How would that be, you obsequious smiling hangdog! Oh, yes, tell me all about how files aren't to linger more than four days, or five at most, on a clerk's desk. I had no idea, you rotting pile of dung! Smile and nod. Nod and smile. Shake shake, oh no, certainly shocking. And you must be exhausted, having to pore over that one leaf of parchment all week, you certainly do know how it is, don't you. Anus! Damn you! Damn you! Damn you! Your eyes pop wide and you clutch your chest. You fall over onto your desk and twitch and spit. Then you don't move at all. Dead! And what would I do? Laugh! I'd laugh and laugh! I would! Damn you!
"That will be all Mr. Bent." Condescending smile.
"Thank you." He reached toward Fenn's desk, his hand anticipating the file with the Grand Test shipment.
Fenn waved his hand away with a tired, perfunctory motion. "I'll take care of this. And this as well, Mr. Bent," when Finghus' hand had diverted toward the possibly mis-illuminated parchment which had started all this.
"You clearly don't have enough time to close this out, and I'll need to contact Tobin and Sons myself anyway, to determine if they have already tried to consult this record, and were unable to do so."
After another uncomfortable pause, in which Fenn continued to watch him, and held the files to himself with an expectant air, Finghus said "Thank you" with a slight smile and stepped out of the office.
Finghus Bent was walking toward his small flat of rooms, the chain of the firm's sign feeling particularly heavy this evening. The sun had just disappeared below the rim of the mountains as he came to the road which ran up into the foothills. He crossed it every morning and every night.
He paused for several moments before crossing, looking westward up the street, watching the crowded, hunching buildings winding up and away into dim blue twilight. That tower in the parchment, the receiving address, was on a small road which branched from this one only a little more than a mile up. He looked forward again, and stepped into the street, his shoes giving off a damp grating noise from the pebbles and old rainwater on the cobblestones.
At nearly halfway across the intersection, he turned his head leftward again, up the road, and saw a dim yellow light come up in one of the high windows, far up the street. He stopped.
It really would be good to be able to put all the referencing notes in the right files. What was the name of the tower? Who lived there? The receiving party would very likely have their own file, if only he knew who it was. Perhaps such diligence would be rewarded. He would certainly get through the files on his desk more quickly, but extra work done on one's own initiative, that might be just the salve for today's wound.
He started up the street, without really deciding to do it. After a few steps he realised he was still out in the middle of the cobbles, and stepped off to the right side, up onto the paving stones. A walk would do him good anyway. It would clear his mind. He hadn't eaten. Perhaps go home first, poke about for something to eat. No, if he went home, he wouldn't leave again tonight. What would happen if he chanced to see Fenn tomorrow, but had no new addendum to their conversation. Conversation! It had hardly been a conversation. No, this would be the only opportunity. It had even stopped raining before he'd left the firm.
He pulled his heavy wool coat tighter around himself, doing it in what he thought would be a dramatically pitiful, yet adventurously endearing way if someone happened to be watching him. How preposterous. He straightened up and let go of his lapels. This was important though. He sighed to himself. Of course it wasn't really important.
He put his hands into the pockets of his coat, and continued climbing upward along the street. It wasn't terribly steep, but after walking up it for a block he turned back to the intersection and could see down onto the slate rooftops of the buildings across the street. He turned back, and looked up to the lighted window again.
He had noticed several other windows fill with glowing light as well, but he concentrated on the one he'd seen from the intersection. It had come up all at once, rather than gradually, so it must be an oil lamp rather than candles.
His mother had had a beautiful oil lamp when he was a boy. It always sat on a high buffet table in their front room, not far from the window. The base was red, not clear like the glass around the flame. He remembered the beautiful swirling red shadows on the buffet, the oil making it shimmer out across the cloths and the dark wood. Patterns of red light. He could watch it for hours. If he nudged the table only very slightly, the patterns of light would swish and swirl. How long had it been since he had just simply watched something for an hour? Years.
He breathed in deeply as he got nearer to the window. No smell of food, though. He could smell it in his mind. The warm, intelligent smell from the kitchen, reaching him and embracing him out in the dark front room as he watched the swirling red light. The darkness and distant roof tiles outside the window drew his thoughts out into the night, and drew his eyes to one of the glowing lighted windows in a building across the street. It looked so warm and inviting. He imagined coming home to that glowing room and smiling at a glowing life, then looked back into the swirling red light.
He was under the window now, and looked up, imagining coming home to the glowing window, with swirling red light, and dark wood, and historic smells inside. He quickly saw his own flat of rooms in his mind, barren and grey, cold. He drove it from his mind vehemently, and continued walking. Yes, their window must have looked like that from outside.
Finghus Bent continued to walk up the road. It was really quite dark now. It could have been anytime in the middle of the night. He watched the reflections of more lighted windows on the wet cobblestones as he walked, the street winding only slightly left or right as it made its way up toward the foothills.
He came to the old Hill Gate, which had now passed its name on to this whole section of the city. Buildings crowded on either side, and it now exerted its presence only as a wide archway, narrowing the road a bit. As he passed under the ancient gatehouse, through the high crumbling tunnel of some forty feet, he stared into the black shadows over him. He kept looking behind and above, and each time he looked ahead again he walked a bit faster. He was sure the ceiling above him was groined and vaulted up above the shadows. Surely nothing could be up there though. Sheer foolishness. By the time he came out the other side, he was nearly running, his deep quick breaths now just visible in the cold air.
He stared back through the tunnel. He glanced up quickly at the ancient windows and ledges of the gatehouse, then back down at the tunnel. Nothing. Ridiculous behaviour. Foolishness. Were vampires totally silent? Stop it! He turned and continued up the street, angling directly back toward the paving stones on the right side. He looked back again. He hurried on. If he didn't hurry, it would be terribly late by the time he got to his flat.
As he neared the edge of the city, the buildings thinned out and became smaller. Tall grass and weeds died slowly in deserted patches between the buildings, grey in the dim light. The massive black shadow of the mountains loomed high ahead. He was sure a mist would rise in the cold tonight, but it hadn't begun yet. He had to use the bathroom desperately now, but was having difficulty finding an appropriate spot. At first, he had wanted to find a shop or inn open, but he hadn't seen anything like that.
A shack up on the right looked completely deserted, and had several high bushes near it, still thick with their leaves crisp and withered. He left the cobblestones and headed off through the dry brittle grass. It came up almost to his knee in places, and made far more noise than he wanted to. He tried to step in the bare patches, but they grasped at his shoes with squishing mud from the earlier rain. The tall bushes scraped their dead leaves on him as he passed.
He looked back to the street. Still too open. He went farther back, crunching now not only in the brittle grass, but in the few dead leaves which had actually fallen into it. Looking back again, it was still too easy to see the street. Perhaps no one could see back into here though. Had he been able to see back this far? A little farther, and he could actually go around the corner of the little building.
How odd that some leaves never fall. The leaves on these bushes were quite dead, but had stayed on when most of the other trees around the city had shed their clothes over a week ago. He tried to pick one off, but it didn't come easily. It moved the little branch too much. Too much noise. He went through, around the back corner.
He began facing the wall of the little decaying house, but then for fear of getting his shoes wet he stopped and faced away from it. The ground sloped slightly away from the old crumbling foundation stones. Looking up, above the bushes which came around the back, he saw the shine of glass. It was a window in another building, some distance away. It was dark though. Dirty. As deserted as this one. Movement in the window? Perhaps it had just been the motion of his eyes. Keeping his concentration on the window, he looked around slightly. No, that wasn't it. He turned his head a bit. He swayed back and forth slightly. No, no movement from that. Colourless cloth hung behind the dirty glass, the folds resolving themselves in thick vertical shadows. They hadn't moved. He was certain. That only left one thing. A reflection. From the street, out in front? Even from the side of the house, maybe?
In his mind, hordes of black shapes descended on him from around the corners of the little building. He quickly closed his pants and backed up to the wall, stepping into some kind of dampness. He disgustedly realised what it was, and stepped sideways toward the corner. He listened. He was at the corner now, and realised his hands were shaking. He heard nothing. He looked across at the window again, then peeked quickly around the corner. Nothing. He jerked his head around, over his left shoulder, to look at the other back corner of the building. Rushing shadows! No. Nothing.
He turned about and backed away from the corner, watching along both walls. The dead dry leaves and twigs sent a shock through his back, and he started forward, rushing more and more quickly through the dry sparse grass, toward the street. He jumped onto the cobblestones.
What noise he had made! What terrible noise! He started back up the street, looking about himself frantically with each step.
There were no houses or buildings at all now, and the road wound back and forth much more. He was truly up into the foothills now, and the strain of going up the steeper incline here had drawn the last of the adrenalin rush from him. Still chastising himself for his stupid behaviour at the little abandoned house, he kept his eyes mostly on the cobblestones. Why hadn't they terraced the road here, or at least put in steps every so often? They could have done that, put steps to the side. That wouldn't interfere with carts. Perhaps there had been, but they were overgrown.
The side road was dirt and overgrown when he finally arrived there. The cobbles of the main road broke and faded off to the right side, where it angled off, up into the northern hills. The main road continued on, ignoring this ill-used offshoot, with it's overhanging branches. Some of the bushes and trees held on to their dead leaves, like the bushes back at that little house. He was sure it was the right one, from the broken old sign. It had been much further than his memory had implied, however. It must be three hours since he'd left the firm. How long since he'd seen lights when he'd looked downhill? They were hidden by the hills now.
If he turned around now, he would have wasted perhaps three hours. No, six! Good Gods but it would be late when he finally got to his flat. Well, it can't be for nothing.
He looked up the side road. It's left side was an overgrown hill, steep and difficult to judge, going up into the darkness. The right side rambled off into the night, and seemed to rise a bit before disappearing. Perhaps more hills off that way, then down toward the city on the other side of them? The moon was very thin, and the light from it seemed to ebb and flow as clouds passed before it. Was the mist just beginning to rise, just at the edge of his vision?
Six hours wasted! An absolutely intolerable waste of time! He walked quickly off the cobblestones and up the side road.
It wasn't long before the road consisted of two muddy wheel ruts amid tufts of dead dry grass. He tried to walk down the middle for awhile, but it was too uneven. He thought the dead leaves would be suitable to walk on, but he received a muddy shoe in response. He eventually resorted to walking on the left side, under the overhanging branches. The dead leaves and dry twigs bothered him, but the darkness on the other side of the road made him too anxious to walk there.
After a mile or more, the sides had changed dramatically. On his right was a steep high hill, a mountainside really, with dry haggard clumps of tall grass and weeds. The bare trees and bushes were less frequent now, and hungrily pawed at his back and shoulders with only dry twigs. He should have been able to avoid them easily. The road was dry hard earth, dusty and cold, with rocks and smooth stones breaking out from beneath, and with the few dead leaves which hadn't been blown away by the highland winds finding their way under his shoes. The left side dropped into a black chasm.
The towering black shadows of the mountains were all around now it seemed, but the shard of moon still fought out from behind the clouds. It lit the mist which was rising now. He had dared to walk within a few feet of the left side of the road for several steps, trying to get an apprehensive look. All he could see was blackness and a few wispy strands of mist, all the way up to the black outline of the mountaintops on that side. He was hugging the right side again now, continuing upward, bearing the occasional grasping branch to stay as far from the edge as possible.
Gradually, something began to resolve out of the mist. It was like a wall, barring the path of the road, but it was still too far to make out clearly. He couldn't see the base because of the mist, but it seemed to go from the mountainside to the edge of the chasm, or perhaps even just past it. As he came closer, the moon broke through again, and stone crenellations appeared high up. Down the face, he could see several narrow windows, shuttered tight with old weather-beaten wood.
He was suddenly possessed of the notion that he was being watched. Watched through the narrow shuttered windows. Watched through the cracks by anxious unseen eyes.
He clumsily shifted his next step up and to the right, and with much slipping of shoes on loose dirt and rocks he began scrambling up the mountainside. His hands went down reflexively, one of them scraping on a rock. As he grabbed for a jutting root from one of the sparse trees, he looked back to the edifice again. The mist near the base had parted somewhat, and he could see a great gate at the base, filled with a massive double door of heavy wooden planks. Monstrous black metal knockers leered down onto the road from each side, indistinct and glinting in the moonlight.
A short thicket of dry bushes promised concealment. He clung to their lower branches as though he might slide back down, though he might have stood here had it not been for the loose rock. He looked through the black net of dry branches and twigs. It must be the tower. He realised suddenly his breathing was fast and loud, and he tried to force it down.
What was he doing here?! Why had he come up here? He looked up at the fraction of moon being swept away by clouds again. What could he possibly hope to find out? He couldn't just walk up there and inquire about the shipment. What did he expect to see, a sign with a name on it?!
He felt a pain in his hand where he had scraped it on the rocks, thin and sharp in his palm, like the whistling bite of a paper cut. He looked down, annoyed, expecting to see a trickle of blood from the scrape.
He saw eyes, black and beady. Claws and teeth, biting, rasping. A dry husk which shouldn't be moving.
A short, loud scream, and he jumped to his feet. He flew backward as he turned, trying to keep his feet beneath him as he went downhill, rocks and dirt flying. He shot onto the road and looked up. A man stood inches in front of him. He screamed again, louder, and flung his arms out, still plummeting.
The man was trying to stop him, or grab him. Get in his way. Get out of his way? Get past! Get away! The man tumbled back, reaching and clawing as he plummeted into blackness. They had been that close to the edge! He had just seen the man's shoes scrabbling on the the edge as he tipped back farther and farther. His run down the hill had carried him that far before he looked up?!
Still running, but down the road now. He saw it in his mind, the mist swirling as the man fell through it into the black yawning chasm. Good Gods! Back from the edge! No, not to the trees, not to the branches!
He ran down the middle of the road, stumbling but managing to keep his legs under himself. It felt like he was falling, plummeting face first down into the mist, his legs merely trying to keep up instead of driving him forward. As he turned left around the first corner, it felt like he would simply continue out into the blackness. He even had the sensation of falling, the curious lack of weight, but he slid around and continued down the road.
He fell when he reached the first of the wheel ruts and dry grass. He lay there panting, watching his breath fog out in great clouds, blowing the grass and dead leaves. He saw the man falling again. Not a tall man. Thin. Wiry. He should have been able to get out of the way. He was trying to grab me though, wasn't he?
Was something standing above him? Behind him? About to rend his back to bits? His head jerked back over his shoulder. Nothing. He leaned up on one arm. The breaths were deeper now, and a bit slower.
The man had a thin mustache over his yelling mouth as he fell backward. No sound came from it. His black brows were crushing down over his small dark eyes. Small, and dark, and set close together.
Finghus Bent stood up between the muddy leaf-filled ruts of the road, staring down into the dead grass. The man's long, thin nose wrinkled up as he clawed for the coatsleeve, barely missing it. The man was very angry at Finghus Bent for killing him.
He shuddered. Had he really shuddered? Was he just being self-consciously dramatic? No, it had been genuine. He had pulled his arm back so the man couldn't grab it. Had he known the man was already falling when he did that? Killed him.
"Killed him."
He looked quickly behind again, and seeing only uncomfortably close mist he hurried again toward the main road. He could see the cobblestones in his mind. Yes, see the cobblestones, only the stones.
When he finally came over the last concealing hill, there were few lights to be seen down in the city. Those few were a great comfort. He smiled, then quickly lost it. What right did he have to smile?
The sparsely populated edge of the city, clinging to the foothills, looked different coming from this direction. Perhaps it was merely the ease of walking downhill, but he didn't feel the expected need to hurry through the area where he had stopped earlier. Someone was walking on the side of the street, but they struck him as completely ordinary. He kept glancing over at them as he passed.
Several other ordinary people walked through his view as he made his way down to the intersection where he would turn. Their shoes made normal noises on the wet cobblestones. Had he seen four? Five? Just coats and hats, cloaks and boots, moving in the dim city. Nothing unusual. It had been supper time when he had been walking up toward the foothills, and that surely explained why he had seen no one then. No one except for the reflection in the window when he had stopped.
Stop. Just walk, don't think. He didn't even know if that had been 'someone.'
He came to his intersection, and with great relief walked casually around the corner, heading left toward his rooms. He was off the road to the foothills now, and much more comfortable. What would he have for his late supper? Bread, yes there was bread. Soup. Yes, soup, or even stew perhaps. A nice warm fire in the hearth, the things falling into the hot water, smell of hot cider, and it would all be much better very shortly.
Of course, all he actually studied when he looked up were the patterns of cobwebs and the wormholes in the wood. He was sorting his papers into those he could actually take into the Under-Manager's office, and those he would have to hide somewhere. The idea of simply waiting a bit and then going back to his desk was out of the question. Now that he had said he was going there, he would have to do it. He looked at the cobwebs again. One was actually a spider web. He suddenly imagined a spider large enough to fill one of the mouseholes.
What he had found today, the shipping record from Tobin and Sons, Limited, was a valid reason for seeing the Under-Manager. Of course, it wasn't the Grand Test shipment he thought was in error, but the other record. The most the over-clerk would hear would probably be that he had indeed went to the office of Admonast Fenn, and had indeed talked with him about some record having to do with a Grand Test entry. All well and good then.
All his parchments were sorted now. The random handful of files and the bean harvest record were separated out, and he had put them into the back of another file. He wouldn't have to show Fenn all of them, and it wouldn't be entirely unreasonable for him to be carrying around another file.
He couldn't believe how calm he was now. Was he really that calm? Sometime while he was standing here at the stationery counter, his sense of reality had returned to normal. He couldn't pinpoint the moment now, but it was almost as though he had awoken from a dream, and slowly come around to find himself standing here. No, it certainly hadn't been a dream. There were the files here in his hands. He was ready to walk to Mr. Fenn's office.
He looked at the windows in the door and walls of the elevated office at the back of the room through which he was walking. He walked with purpose, and lacking the common pauses and stops of a typical transit of a room. The office was three, or perhaps four steps above the rest of the room, and the windows were so dusty as to be almost completely opaque. The desks with their clerks, busy with their work as he walked through them, became merely the background of what he saw. As he came closer, he saw that the window in the door bore only the words "Under-Manager," but no name.
He counted four steps to himself quickly, before he stepped on the first. His hand reached out toward the engraved bronze knob and turned it, the door swinging almost fully open as he mounted the last step.
What had he done?! He hadn't knocked! Good Gods! He froze, dumbfounded.
Mr. Admonast Fenn was a thin older man, his hair a rim of white fringe around the perimeter of his head. He sat at his desk behind a dusty bit of wood and brass bearing his name. He was looking down at a parchment. Without raising his eyes, he said "Yes?"
Finghus Bent looked at the mottled, chalky white skin on the top of Mr. Fenn's skull, and on his hands. It suddenly occurred to him he hadn't practised what he would say. It hadn't even crossed his mind.
"Mr. Fenn." It sounded a bit like a question.
"Yes?," he said again in precisely the same way. His quill made thin, high scratching noises in the silence.
"I was researching the different places, the different files, where I'd need to put referencing notes for this file I was working on." He paused for a fraction, but Mr. Fenn neither stopped writing nor looked up. He quickly continued. "And in one of them I was looking in, I found another record which I thought surely must have something to do with the one I was researching." No, he wasn't being clear at all. He wasn't conveying what he meant.
"The file I found, the related one, to the one I'd been working on, seemed to have something wrong with it. Then I thought it must be the file I'd been working on that was the problem." Still no response. "So... I thought I'd better... show it to you, and..." He smiled lamely, and raised his eyebrows in a sort of 'there it is, don't you know' expression.
Without looking up, and while continuing to scratch his quill across the parchment before him, Mr. Fenn said "Having a bit of trouble with your grammar then, Mr. ...?"
"Bent."
In one smooth motion, Mr. Admonast Fenn deftly placed another parchment over the one on which he'd been writing, put his quill in its holder, and raised his face to Mr. Bent, a wide smile upon it. It was the sort of large, overly gentle, closed mouthed, condescending smile one might give to a child who isn't quite grasping something.
"Don't fret Mr. Bent, I'm certain it isn't your fault. It's the abysmal education system. Now let me see this file of yours, won't you?" He held out one hand.
Finghus handed him the file he had found regarding the Grand Test shipment from Tobin and Sons, Limited. He realised after Mr. Fenn took it that he had probably meant the file having the supposed error. Well, just go with it.
After a few moments looking the parchment over, Fenn said "Mr. Bent, this is a record for a shipment to the Grand Test. The receiving address is within the Akurratu Morvalicus itself." He tilted his head forward a bit, raising his eyebrows. "That's the Imperial Palace in Helios, Mr. Bent."
He thinks I've brought this here because I'm a complete idiot. He thinks I've made a terribly stupid error. He thinks I don't even know what it is.
Fenn continued, saying "You don't think they might have made an error on this, do you?"
"Well, I was concerned about that at first too, but this is the file I think is in error." He held up the piece of parchment he'd originally drawn from his sea of files, and made to set it on the desk. Mr. Fenn took it in hand before it reached the surface. Laying the other file reverently aside, he began carefully studying the parchment.
"You've had this for over a month, Bent. Isn't that so?"
"Uhm... well, that's the date the illuminator had it approved." What?! He hadn't thought about that. What could he say? What could he come up with to excuse this?
"I'm well aware, Mr. Bent, of what the date indicates. But do you know what else it indicates to me Mr. Bent? Indolence. Someone probably wished to see this by now, and they should have been able to. We're relied upon, Mr. Bent, to do our job not only thoroughly, but in a timely manner. We are the only firm in this part of the Old Marches to bear the seal of the Scriptorium Morvalicum, and we bear it proudly, Mr. Bent. People in this area, and many outside it I might add, have, over the years, come to see the firm of Ipsum, Lorem, and Finibus as a watchword in the field of reliability.
"Tobin and Sons, Limited is an important account as well, Mr. Bent. They've been relying on this firm, relying Mr. Bent, since the time of Mr. Finibus himself. You do realise how many centuries that is, don't you?"
"Yes... Yes." Damn it! What do I say?!
Admonast Fenn sighed deeply, pregnant with annoyance. "Well..." He looked over the parchment again quickly. "Whatever led you to believe these files were related in the first place?"
"Well..." A feeble half smile. "They're both with Tobin and Sons, and both the shipments weight the same amount."
"Weigh, Mr. Bent, weigh."
"Uh... Yes" Another feeble smile.
"But they don't weigh the same amount, Mr. Bent."
"Well, actually, you see there on the Grand Test shipment..." He pointed to the spot, despite Fenn's glare. "The same weight's been lined out. It was the same, but then it was lined out, as though... perhaps part of it was removed."
"Or as though it were a coincidental error, Mr. Bent. Even had it remained the same, I feel you've given it too much significance. I would venture to assume, Mr. Bent, that you and I weigh roughly the same amount. Should that lead someone to assume we are the same person?"
"No."
"No. Now, I think it would be best for everyone concerned if you would get back to work. How many more files of this age do you have on your desk, Mr. Bent?"
"Uh... none, I don't think. It's very unusual for a file to be on my desk as long as this one. I always keep up as best I can. The only thing I can think of is that it must have gotten stuck to another parchment, or maybe gotten covered up by someone leaving something else, while I was tracking something down in the files." Fatuous! Fatuous and bootless!
There are a dozen things on my desk a month old, or older. I'll bet he knows it too! And there he sits, gloating on it. Despicable toad! Mr. Who? indeed! He knows who I am, only too well! I'd like to take that quill and jam it into your eye. Scratch, scratch, scratch! How would that be, you obsequious smiling hangdog! Oh, yes, tell me all about how files aren't to linger more than four days, or five at most, on a clerk's desk. I had no idea, you rotting pile of dung! Smile and nod. Nod and smile. Shake shake, oh no, certainly shocking. And you must be exhausted, having to pore over that one leaf of parchment all week, you certainly do know how it is, don't you. Anus! Damn you! Damn you! Damn you! Your eyes pop wide and you clutch your chest. You fall over onto your desk and twitch and spit. Then you don't move at all. Dead! And what would I do? Laugh! I'd laugh and laugh! I would! Damn you!
"That will be all Mr. Bent." Condescending smile.
"Thank you." He reached toward Fenn's desk, his hand anticipating the file with the Grand Test shipment.
Fenn waved his hand away with a tired, perfunctory motion. "I'll take care of this. And this as well, Mr. Bent," when Finghus' hand had diverted toward the possibly mis-illuminated parchment which had started all this.
"You clearly don't have enough time to close this out, and I'll need to contact Tobin and Sons myself anyway, to determine if they have already tried to consult this record, and were unable to do so."
After another uncomfortable pause, in which Fenn continued to watch him, and held the files to himself with an expectant air, Finghus said "Thank you" with a slight smile and stepped out of the office.
Finghus Bent was walking toward his small flat of rooms, the chain of the firm's sign feeling particularly heavy this evening. The sun had just disappeared below the rim of the mountains as he came to the road which ran up into the foothills. He crossed it every morning and every night.
He paused for several moments before crossing, looking westward up the street, watching the crowded, hunching buildings winding up and away into dim blue twilight. That tower in the parchment, the receiving address, was on a small road which branched from this one only a little more than a mile up. He looked forward again, and stepped into the street, his shoes giving off a damp grating noise from the pebbles and old rainwater on the cobblestones.
At nearly halfway across the intersection, he turned his head leftward again, up the road, and saw a dim yellow light come up in one of the high windows, far up the street. He stopped.
It really would be good to be able to put all the referencing notes in the right files. What was the name of the tower? Who lived there? The receiving party would very likely have their own file, if only he knew who it was. Perhaps such diligence would be rewarded. He would certainly get through the files on his desk more quickly, but extra work done on one's own initiative, that might be just the salve for today's wound.
He started up the street, without really deciding to do it. After a few steps he realised he was still out in the middle of the cobbles, and stepped off to the right side, up onto the paving stones. A walk would do him good anyway. It would clear his mind. He hadn't eaten. Perhaps go home first, poke about for something to eat. No, if he went home, he wouldn't leave again tonight. What would happen if he chanced to see Fenn tomorrow, but had no new addendum to their conversation. Conversation! It had hardly been a conversation. No, this would be the only opportunity. It had even stopped raining before he'd left the firm.
He pulled his heavy wool coat tighter around himself, doing it in what he thought would be a dramatically pitiful, yet adventurously endearing way if someone happened to be watching him. How preposterous. He straightened up and let go of his lapels. This was important though. He sighed to himself. Of course it wasn't really important.
He put his hands into the pockets of his coat, and continued climbing upward along the street. It wasn't terribly steep, but after walking up it for a block he turned back to the intersection and could see down onto the slate rooftops of the buildings across the street. He turned back, and looked up to the lighted window again.
He had noticed several other windows fill with glowing light as well, but he concentrated on the one he'd seen from the intersection. It had come up all at once, rather than gradually, so it must be an oil lamp rather than candles.
His mother had had a beautiful oil lamp when he was a boy. It always sat on a high buffet table in their front room, not far from the window. The base was red, not clear like the glass around the flame. He remembered the beautiful swirling red shadows on the buffet, the oil making it shimmer out across the cloths and the dark wood. Patterns of red light. He could watch it for hours. If he nudged the table only very slightly, the patterns of light would swish and swirl. How long had it been since he had just simply watched something for an hour? Years.
He breathed in deeply as he got nearer to the window. No smell of food, though. He could smell it in his mind. The warm, intelligent smell from the kitchen, reaching him and embracing him out in the dark front room as he watched the swirling red light. The darkness and distant roof tiles outside the window drew his thoughts out into the night, and drew his eyes to one of the glowing lighted windows in a building across the street. It looked so warm and inviting. He imagined coming home to that glowing room and smiling at a glowing life, then looked back into the swirling red light.
He was under the window now, and looked up, imagining coming home to the glowing window, with swirling red light, and dark wood, and historic smells inside. He quickly saw his own flat of rooms in his mind, barren and grey, cold. He drove it from his mind vehemently, and continued walking. Yes, their window must have looked like that from outside.
Finghus Bent continued to walk up the road. It was really quite dark now. It could have been anytime in the middle of the night. He watched the reflections of more lighted windows on the wet cobblestones as he walked, the street winding only slightly left or right as it made its way up toward the foothills.
He came to the old Hill Gate, which had now passed its name on to this whole section of the city. Buildings crowded on either side, and it now exerted its presence only as a wide archway, narrowing the road a bit. As he passed under the ancient gatehouse, through the high crumbling tunnel of some forty feet, he stared into the black shadows over him. He kept looking behind and above, and each time he looked ahead again he walked a bit faster. He was sure the ceiling above him was groined and vaulted up above the shadows. Surely nothing could be up there though. Sheer foolishness. By the time he came out the other side, he was nearly running, his deep quick breaths now just visible in the cold air.
He stared back through the tunnel. He glanced up quickly at the ancient windows and ledges of the gatehouse, then back down at the tunnel. Nothing. Ridiculous behaviour. Foolishness. Were vampires totally silent? Stop it! He turned and continued up the street, angling directly back toward the paving stones on the right side. He looked back again. He hurried on. If he didn't hurry, it would be terribly late by the time he got to his flat.
As he neared the edge of the city, the buildings thinned out and became smaller. Tall grass and weeds died slowly in deserted patches between the buildings, grey in the dim light. The massive black shadow of the mountains loomed high ahead. He was sure a mist would rise in the cold tonight, but it hadn't begun yet. He had to use the bathroom desperately now, but was having difficulty finding an appropriate spot. At first, he had wanted to find a shop or inn open, but he hadn't seen anything like that.
A shack up on the right looked completely deserted, and had several high bushes near it, still thick with their leaves crisp and withered. He left the cobblestones and headed off through the dry brittle grass. It came up almost to his knee in places, and made far more noise than he wanted to. He tried to step in the bare patches, but they grasped at his shoes with squishing mud from the earlier rain. The tall bushes scraped their dead leaves on him as he passed.
He looked back to the street. Still too open. He went farther back, crunching now not only in the brittle grass, but in the few dead leaves which had actually fallen into it. Looking back again, it was still too easy to see the street. Perhaps no one could see back into here though. Had he been able to see back this far? A little farther, and he could actually go around the corner of the little building.
How odd that some leaves never fall. The leaves on these bushes were quite dead, but had stayed on when most of the other trees around the city had shed their clothes over a week ago. He tried to pick one off, but it didn't come easily. It moved the little branch too much. Too much noise. He went through, around the back corner.
He began facing the wall of the little decaying house, but then for fear of getting his shoes wet he stopped and faced away from it. The ground sloped slightly away from the old crumbling foundation stones. Looking up, above the bushes which came around the back, he saw the shine of glass. It was a window in another building, some distance away. It was dark though. Dirty. As deserted as this one. Movement in the window? Perhaps it had just been the motion of his eyes. Keeping his concentration on the window, he looked around slightly. No, that wasn't it. He turned his head a bit. He swayed back and forth slightly. No, no movement from that. Colourless cloth hung behind the dirty glass, the folds resolving themselves in thick vertical shadows. They hadn't moved. He was certain. That only left one thing. A reflection. From the street, out in front? Even from the side of the house, maybe?
In his mind, hordes of black shapes descended on him from around the corners of the little building. He quickly closed his pants and backed up to the wall, stepping into some kind of dampness. He disgustedly realised what it was, and stepped sideways toward the corner. He listened. He was at the corner now, and realised his hands were shaking. He heard nothing. He looked across at the window again, then peeked quickly around the corner. Nothing. He jerked his head around, over his left shoulder, to look at the other back corner of the building. Rushing shadows! No. Nothing.
He turned about and backed away from the corner, watching along both walls. The dead dry leaves and twigs sent a shock through his back, and he started forward, rushing more and more quickly through the dry sparse grass, toward the street. He jumped onto the cobblestones.
What noise he had made! What terrible noise! He started back up the street, looking about himself frantically with each step.
There were no houses or buildings at all now, and the road wound back and forth much more. He was truly up into the foothills now, and the strain of going up the steeper incline here had drawn the last of the adrenalin rush from him. Still chastising himself for his stupid behaviour at the little abandoned house, he kept his eyes mostly on the cobblestones. Why hadn't they terraced the road here, or at least put in steps every so often? They could have done that, put steps to the side. That wouldn't interfere with carts. Perhaps there had been, but they were overgrown.
The side road was dirt and overgrown when he finally arrived there. The cobbles of the main road broke and faded off to the right side, where it angled off, up into the northern hills. The main road continued on, ignoring this ill-used offshoot, with it's overhanging branches. Some of the bushes and trees held on to their dead leaves, like the bushes back at that little house. He was sure it was the right one, from the broken old sign. It had been much further than his memory had implied, however. It must be three hours since he'd left the firm. How long since he'd seen lights when he'd looked downhill? They were hidden by the hills now.
If he turned around now, he would have wasted perhaps three hours. No, six! Good Gods but it would be late when he finally got to his flat. Well, it can't be for nothing.
He looked up the side road. It's left side was an overgrown hill, steep and difficult to judge, going up into the darkness. The right side rambled off into the night, and seemed to rise a bit before disappearing. Perhaps more hills off that way, then down toward the city on the other side of them? The moon was very thin, and the light from it seemed to ebb and flow as clouds passed before it. Was the mist just beginning to rise, just at the edge of his vision?
Six hours wasted! An absolutely intolerable waste of time! He walked quickly off the cobblestones and up the side road.
It wasn't long before the road consisted of two muddy wheel ruts amid tufts of dead dry grass. He tried to walk down the middle for awhile, but it was too uneven. He thought the dead leaves would be suitable to walk on, but he received a muddy shoe in response. He eventually resorted to walking on the left side, under the overhanging branches. The dead leaves and dry twigs bothered him, but the darkness on the other side of the road made him too anxious to walk there.
After a mile or more, the sides had changed dramatically. On his right was a steep high hill, a mountainside really, with dry haggard clumps of tall grass and weeds. The bare trees and bushes were less frequent now, and hungrily pawed at his back and shoulders with only dry twigs. He should have been able to avoid them easily. The road was dry hard earth, dusty and cold, with rocks and smooth stones breaking out from beneath, and with the few dead leaves which hadn't been blown away by the highland winds finding their way under his shoes. The left side dropped into a black chasm.
The towering black shadows of the mountains were all around now it seemed, but the shard of moon still fought out from behind the clouds. It lit the mist which was rising now. He had dared to walk within a few feet of the left side of the road for several steps, trying to get an apprehensive look. All he could see was blackness and a few wispy strands of mist, all the way up to the black outline of the mountaintops on that side. He was hugging the right side again now, continuing upward, bearing the occasional grasping branch to stay as far from the edge as possible.
Gradually, something began to resolve out of the mist. It was like a wall, barring the path of the road, but it was still too far to make out clearly. He couldn't see the base because of the mist, but it seemed to go from the mountainside to the edge of the chasm, or perhaps even just past it. As he came closer, the moon broke through again, and stone crenellations appeared high up. Down the face, he could see several narrow windows, shuttered tight with old weather-beaten wood.
He was suddenly possessed of the notion that he was being watched. Watched through the narrow shuttered windows. Watched through the cracks by anxious unseen eyes.
He clumsily shifted his next step up and to the right, and with much slipping of shoes on loose dirt and rocks he began scrambling up the mountainside. His hands went down reflexively, one of them scraping on a rock. As he grabbed for a jutting root from one of the sparse trees, he looked back to the edifice again. The mist near the base had parted somewhat, and he could see a great gate at the base, filled with a massive double door of heavy wooden planks. Monstrous black metal knockers leered down onto the road from each side, indistinct and glinting in the moonlight.
A short thicket of dry bushes promised concealment. He clung to their lower branches as though he might slide back down, though he might have stood here had it not been for the loose rock. He looked through the black net of dry branches and twigs. It must be the tower. He realised suddenly his breathing was fast and loud, and he tried to force it down.
What was he doing here?! Why had he come up here? He looked up at the fraction of moon being swept away by clouds again. What could he possibly hope to find out? He couldn't just walk up there and inquire about the shipment. What did he expect to see, a sign with a name on it?!
He felt a pain in his hand where he had scraped it on the rocks, thin and sharp in his palm, like the whistling bite of a paper cut. He looked down, annoyed, expecting to see a trickle of blood from the scrape.
He saw eyes, black and beady. Claws and teeth, biting, rasping. A dry husk which shouldn't be moving.
A short, loud scream, and he jumped to his feet. He flew backward as he turned, trying to keep his feet beneath him as he went downhill, rocks and dirt flying. He shot onto the road and looked up. A man stood inches in front of him. He screamed again, louder, and flung his arms out, still plummeting.
The man was trying to stop him, or grab him. Get in his way. Get out of his way? Get past! Get away! The man tumbled back, reaching and clawing as he plummeted into blackness. They had been that close to the edge! He had just seen the man's shoes scrabbling on the the edge as he tipped back farther and farther. His run down the hill had carried him that far before he looked up?!
Still running, but down the road now. He saw it in his mind, the mist swirling as the man fell through it into the black yawning chasm. Good Gods! Back from the edge! No, not to the trees, not to the branches!
He ran down the middle of the road, stumbling but managing to keep his legs under himself. It felt like he was falling, plummeting face first down into the mist, his legs merely trying to keep up instead of driving him forward. As he turned left around the first corner, it felt like he would simply continue out into the blackness. He even had the sensation of falling, the curious lack of weight, but he slid around and continued down the road.
He fell when he reached the first of the wheel ruts and dry grass. He lay there panting, watching his breath fog out in great clouds, blowing the grass and dead leaves. He saw the man falling again. Not a tall man. Thin. Wiry. He should have been able to get out of the way. He was trying to grab me though, wasn't he?
Was something standing above him? Behind him? About to rend his back to bits? His head jerked back over his shoulder. Nothing. He leaned up on one arm. The breaths were deeper now, and a bit slower.
The man had a thin mustache over his yelling mouth as he fell backward. No sound came from it. His black brows were crushing down over his small dark eyes. Small, and dark, and set close together.
Finghus Bent stood up between the muddy leaf-filled ruts of the road, staring down into the dead grass. The man's long, thin nose wrinkled up as he clawed for the coatsleeve, barely missing it. The man was very angry at Finghus Bent for killing him.
He shuddered. Had he really shuddered? Was he just being self-consciously dramatic? No, it had been genuine. He had pulled his arm back so the man couldn't grab it. Had he known the man was already falling when he did that? Killed him.
"Killed him."
He looked quickly behind again, and seeing only uncomfortably close mist he hurried again toward the main road. He could see the cobblestones in his mind. Yes, see the cobblestones, only the stones.
When he finally came over the last concealing hill, there were few lights to be seen down in the city. Those few were a great comfort. He smiled, then quickly lost it. What right did he have to smile?
The sparsely populated edge of the city, clinging to the foothills, looked different coming from this direction. Perhaps it was merely the ease of walking downhill, but he didn't feel the expected need to hurry through the area where he had stopped earlier. Someone was walking on the side of the street, but they struck him as completely ordinary. He kept glancing over at them as he passed.
Several other ordinary people walked through his view as he made his way down to the intersection where he would turn. Their shoes made normal noises on the wet cobblestones. Had he seen four? Five? Just coats and hats, cloaks and boots, moving in the dim city. Nothing unusual. It had been supper time when he had been walking up toward the foothills, and that surely explained why he had seen no one then. No one except for the reflection in the window when he had stopped.
Stop. Just walk, don't think. He didn't even know if that had been 'someone.'
He came to his intersection, and with great relief walked casually around the corner, heading left toward his rooms. He was off the road to the foothills now, and much more comfortable. What would he have for his late supper? Bread, yes there was bread. Soup. Yes, soup, or even stew perhaps. A nice warm fire in the hearth, the things falling into the hot water, smell of hot cider, and it would all be much better very shortly.
